With Tj gone and 4 days off, I questioned my parenting abilities and wondered if I would be pulling my hair out by Sunday night. I'm happy to report that I thoroughly enjoyed every second I had with Tylee this weekend. Granted, I had lots of willing "takers" on Thursday and Saturday but nonetheless, I never went a extended period of time without her.
My sister gave me the link to this blog and moments after I started reading I realized that it was going to tug at my heart strings. Tylee was taking a nap in her swing when I started. It only took a peep for me to go grab her. I needed her close to me. One thing that I am very, very careful about is holding her once I get her to sleep. I've probably held her during nap time a handful of times in the past 5 months. This has paid off for me big time in the sleeping department but I realized today that I am so wrapped up in doing everything right that I am missing out on moments that I will never, ever get back. I follow a lot of blogs of babies with CDH and these parents go weeks without being able to hold their baby. This is definitely something that parents of a healthy baby take for granted. I layed her on my chest and as she curled up against me, I took a step back from cleaning, the laundry, dishes, and TV and realized that this is one of those moments that I will remember forever.
I had somewhere to be between 4 and 5 so I got Tylee up and got around. (It was a lazy Sunday!) On the way there, Silent Night by Garth Brooks came on. Silent Night is probably my least favorite Christmas song but this particular version, brings back a lot of memories. It reminds me of Christmastime before we were all grown and had families of our own. It brought me back to a time when I was younger, riding in the car with my Mom, Brother and Sister. It was cold and we may've been heading from one Christmas to another, I don't know. But we listened to this song repeatedly that Christmas...several Christmas' actually but somehow it got lost in the hustle and bustle of growing older. When I heard it tonight, I was so happy to relive those memories yet so sad that they are in the past. Christmas and the holiday season have a whole new meaning to me this year. The years after Santa and before Tylee were, admittedly, all about the gifts. As I got older, it was more about giving than receiving, but it was still about gifts. This year, I am excited about the Christmas music, the lights, and our tree. But I'm more excited about starting traditions and memories for Tylee to cherish and relive as she gets older. I know she won't remember but it isn't about that. It's about taking that step back, looking at life, and realizing that these are all moments that we will never get back.

Growth Chart

I finally got Tylee's Growth Chart done. I painted the flowers when I painted the flowers above her crib but couldn't figure out how to finish the rest. I ordered the words from http://www.wordsanywhere.com/ and used ribbon for the stems. I need to paint more leaves and plan on ordering the words "Birth", 6 Months, 1 year, 2 year...to put by the height mark but didn't think of it when I was ordering the others. Only two more walls to finish up and her nursery is complete. I have an excuse since we didn't know the sex until birth. :-)


More Turkey Please

Tj went Pheasant hunting in South Dakota this weekend and Tylee and I hosted Thanksgiving at our house today. It was a different experience planning, decorating, and preparing with a 5 month old but we got everything accomplished and the day went on without a hitch. Here are a couple pictures of Tylee helping me make Pumpkin Cheesecake. Yum! Yum!

Pretty Blue Eyes

Our baby food jar of the week just happens to be sweet potatoes. Just in time for Thanksgiving! Okay, I planned that as I was picking which jar to try next. :-)

Tylee was worn out. It was a long day with lots of action.

Such as this...

And this...

And because I procrastinated and didn't put my fall stuff up until yesterday, only my immediate family got to see it. I'm posting pictures for the world to see so it wasn't a waste of time and energy. Now I can take it down tomorrow and put up my Christmas stuff.


Happy Thanksgiving!

I am thankful:
  • that I have a wonderful husband that makes me soo happy.
  • that sometimes he cooks dinner and cleans up the mess when I have a bad day.
  • for my happy and healthy baby girl.
  • that she has slept all night since she was 3 weeks old.
  • for my family and the unconditional love that they give me.
  • that I have family that I trust and they just happen to like to babysit.
  • for our puppy Dutch that keeps me warm when Tj is at work.
  • that he has a auto feeder, doggy-door and I can ignore him if I so please for days at at time. (I don't, but I could.)
  • for 2 beautiful neices and 1 handsome nephew that taught me how to love like I've never felt before.
  • that they showed me that a deeper love existed which proved to me that I needed a child of my own.
  • for my home.
  • for my job and the people I work with.
  • that God has provided me with this life that I love oh, so much. I never imagined that life could be this good. I couldn't ask for a better husband, child, home, family, friends, or job. I am truly blessed.


Different...but better

Heidi and Spencer got married? Paris and Benji broke up? Jennifer Aniston spoke out about Brad and Angelina? Ashley Simpson had her baby? Whew! Where have I been? I was feeding Tylee at 2am and Inside Edition was on. I was shocked at all the celebrity gossip that I had missed! Sure enough, I logged onto http://www.people.com/ and it is all true!
I was celebrity obsessed before I had Tylee. I mean, obsessed. People.com is saved in my google reader and it notified me every time it updated. Do you know how many times a day that is? Yah, like 100. E! News is on at 6:00pm, The Daily 10 at 6:30 and E! News again at 10:00pm. The Weekend Edition of E! News is on at 8:00am Saturday morning and I was always upset if I missed it. Sleeping in...E! News. Um. Obsessed? Yes, I think so.
I cannot tell you when the last time I watched E! News was. I had no idea that any of the above had happened. Yes, I still care and no, I'm not ashamed to admit it. My time is filled now laying on the floor playing with Tylee, feeding Green Beans, getting out stains, nursing, rocking, taking pictures, reading books, and just plain adoring my beautiful baby girl.
Different...but better. Oh, so much better.

Like I said...

I've spent $13 on stupider things. Could her head be anymore round? HaHa. Maybe she'll grow out of it.


Rollie Pollie Ollie

Tylee is rolling all over the place now. If you remember way back when, she rolled from her belly to her back. She was a few days shy of 3 months old. This was WAY too early but she did it 3 times in a row and it is obvious (to me, the proud mama) in this video that she was trying. BUT...she never did it again. :-( Until yesterday! She's been rolling from her back to her belly for awhile now but once she got tired of being on her belly, she would just cry until someone flipped her back over. Yesterday she figured out how to roll on over and is definitely taking advantage of her new moves. I can't figure out how to get the video to post from my new digital camera. I'll get out the video camera this weekend and post videos.

She has also started saying consonants. I've heard Bababa and Dadadada so far. It seems like when it rains it pours. Everything happens at once! I am looking forward to Thanksgiving break and having 4 days off to spend with her. Ask me Sunday though and I bet I'm ready to go back to work. Haha.


Pet Pictures

It's nice to wake up in the morning, decide to go get pictures taken, be able to walk to the closet, and find several different options without having bought a thing. Thanks Linds! A local vet in town has "pet pictures" every year and I decided to take Dutch and Tylee. With Tj at work, it made for an eventful morning. I feel sorry for people with two children. :-) I got to the vet and got in the backseat of the Jeep to feed Tylee. Dutch jumped between the two front seats and (successfully) tried to get in the back with Tylee and I. During the transition, he managed to scratch the top of Tylee's head and nose. She cried harder then than she did when we got shots. We made it inside and tried to get some pictures. Tylee was all smiles but Dutch wouldn't cooperate. He is an inside dog and isn't used to the cold so was shivering the whole time. I've spent $13 on stupider things than that. I'll try to post one of the pics when we get them back. No need to waste an outfit though!


Tylee and I went over to our friend Megan's house last night. She had a little boy, Mason, just a week before Tylee. They enjoyed the playdate but not as much as Megan, Kinzi, and I. :-) Tylee kept grabbing at Masons face. She was a little more forward than here Daddy would like her to be, I'm sure.



I really did try to keep her clean. I "spooned off" her mouth after every bite. But she grabs at her spoon and follows the food in with her fingers. She sucks on them for a few seconds and then reaches for another bite. She also sneezed twice right after a bite. Figures.


Not Me Monday

I decided to take part in Not Me Monday copied from MckMamas blog but brought to my attention by my friend Audrey.

This week I was a good wife and an even better Mom. I tried to put Tylee in her own bed but gave up after only a few hours. I made dinner all 5 nights. I enjoyed the fall weather and cuddled up in bed with my 3 favorite people: Dutch, Tylee, and Tj. I went to dinner with a few of my favorite people. I even drank a Margarita for the first time in more than a year. But there are a few things I most certainly did not do. Such as...

I did not wake up on Saturday to find 9 cows in my front yard, AGAIN. These cows have not been wandering around our area for 3 weeks now without anyone claiming them. I did not try to get Tj to load them up and take them to the sale barn. That would not be stealing. I do not love living in the country. Exciting things like this do not happen in the country.

I most definately did not leave Tylee in her pajamas all day yesterday. I did not undress her only to take a nap and then put her in her carseat in only her diaper. It was not 40 degrees outside and we did not take my naked daughter to go look for deer. Not Tj and I. Nope, not us.

I did not open Tj's Playboy and read it before he even got home. I would not encourage that kind of smut in our house. I was not more excited today when the Maxim came. It is not my favorite magazine and I do not want Tj to renew it every year. Nope, not me.


Mommy's Little Helper


Note To Self

Next time you try to take some cute pictures of Tylee, don't put on pajamas with cute feet.


Tj asked me the other day, "So it is really good for Tylee to still be sleeping in our room or is it just good for you?" I said, to Tylee, "Whenever you sleep through the night 3 nights in a row without me having to stick your binky back in once, you can sleep in your own room, okay?" She, of course, smiled.

Against my better judgement, we tried again last night.

I fed her cereal around 9:00 last night, nursed her at 9:30, and put her to bed awake. I woke up at 12:30am and heard her talking. Our rooms are close enough that I don't have to have a monitor but she has to get pretty noisy before I hear her...which is good. I laid there for probably 10 minutes and listened. I finally got up and went and stuck her binky back in. I guess I should've crawled in the room, reached over the crib, and stuck it in, unseen. That isn't even plausible but at least it would've kept her from seeing me.

No matter how cute her big 'ol smile is between the hours of 6am and 9pm, it isn't too cute at 12am. I went back to bed and listened to her coo for another 10 minutes. I finally got back up and went to stick the binky back in. Low and behold, it was still in her mouth. She was talking around the binky. So...what now? I got her out of her crib and rocked her back to sleep without feeding her.

My first guess as to why she woke up: she lost her binky (which I would've sleepily replaced at her first noise if she was right next to me) and then woke up and wiggled enough to get her arm out of her blanket. If you remember from this post, I'm still swaddling her. She is getting too big though and can wiggle her arms out. Decision: Buy bigger blankets? Or transition her from swaddling?

I laid her down and started her Beethoven Nursery Rhyme's CD again. She was sound asleep...until 1:40am. I heard her talking again and listened as long as I could. I finally got up and fed her, wrapped her back up, and laid her back down...until 2:40am. I know she wasn't hungry, I know she is 100% capable of sleeping through the night, why was she awake?! AGAIN!

Now I'm second guessing this music/sleeping thing. So now what, the CD stops and she wakes up? I am using the DVD player on her TV and there is a repeat option but does she really need it to play over, and over, and over?

So to make an even longer story short, I brought her back to "her bed" in our room and she slept from 2:40am until I woke up her up at 7:20am to put her in her carseat. She slept all the way to town and was waking up as we were pulling up to Grandmas.
I really want your advice. Is it hurting her to sleep within an arms reach so I can stick her binky back in? Or do we need to move her into her own room.

Baby Sofia

Sofia was diagnosed on October 29, 2007 at 19 weeks gestation with a Congenital Diaphragmatic Hernia (CDH) during a routine ultrasound. CDH is a life threatening birth defect with a 50-60% survival rate. She was born March 10, 2008, spent 12 days on ECMO (heart and lung bypass), had 3 surgeries, and finally came home after 81 days in the NICU. After 7 weeks at home, Sofia reherniated. She underwent another surgery and spent another 10 days in the hospital.
Sofie has since reherniatied for the 3rd time and is in surgery as we speak. Please keep Jennifer, Kenny, and Sofie in your prayers.

Knees and Toes, Knees and Toes